I’m so cross with myself.
For lots of reasons … mostly that I haven’t made a post since 9 October because I’ve been so distracted reading other people’s and generally spending too much time surfing. In my head, I have written a post almost every day but haven’t physically done so and it makes me so angry with myself because this was meant to be like a diary : capturing a record of things I’ve seen and done, mostly for my own benefit and enjoyment.
I’ve so enjoyed everything I’ve written up till now and when I take LB for his daily walk I’m planning the next post; but then guilt takes over and I don’t write anything at all because I can’t just write a few words – it becomes an essay, as Lucy Corrander knows ! She sent me a quick email and my response to her was almost a post in itself.
Another reason I’m cross is that I forgot to take my camera with me the other day and missed three ‘photo’ opportunities. It had been raining hard for 46 hours and within twenty minutes of it stopping I went out with the Tibetan Terror. The mass of water was rushing along the irrigation canal and at one point I could hear some 200 metres away the sound of water falling – impressive and slightly scary to see. Later, I missed being able to capture the golden watery sun on an old building, the grey rain clouds in the background. Doesn’t sound half as interesting to just describe !
And then, when I have had my camera, missing an opportunity. I’ve seen something interesting (but that’s subjective anyway !), gone past it, thought ‘damn’ and instead of turning round (assuming the opportunity was still present) carrying on, cursing myself for being so useless.
So, having scolded myself thoroughly, I’m hoping to do some back dating of a few things : quite a bit of cooking, so a few recipes perhaps and a fairly epic (for me) removal and replanting of some olive trees for a job. Now – get over being cross and get on with it !
For lots of reasons … mostly that I haven’t made a post since 9 October because I’ve been so distracted reading other people’s and generally spending too much time surfing. In my head, I have written a post almost every day but haven’t physically done so and it makes me so angry with myself because this was meant to be like a diary : capturing a record of things I’ve seen and done, mostly for my own benefit and enjoyment.
I’ve so enjoyed everything I’ve written up till now and when I take LB for his daily walk I’m planning the next post; but then guilt takes over and I don’t write anything at all because I can’t just write a few words – it becomes an essay, as Lucy Corrander knows ! She sent me a quick email and my response to her was almost a post in itself.
Another reason I’m cross is that I forgot to take my camera with me the other day and missed three ‘photo’ opportunities. It had been raining hard for 46 hours and within twenty minutes of it stopping I went out with the Tibetan Terror. The mass of water was rushing along the irrigation canal and at one point I could hear some 200 metres away the sound of water falling – impressive and slightly scary to see. Later, I missed being able to capture the golden watery sun on an old building, the grey rain clouds in the background. Doesn’t sound half as interesting to just describe !
And then, when I have had my camera, missing an opportunity. I’ve seen something interesting (but that’s subjective anyway !), gone past it, thought ‘damn’ and instead of turning round (assuming the opportunity was still present) carrying on, cursing myself for being so useless.
So, having scolded myself thoroughly, I’m hoping to do some back dating of a few things : quite a bit of cooking, so a few recipes perhaps and a fairly epic (for me) removal and replanting of some olive trees for a job. Now – get over being cross and get on with it !
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I have been having the same feelings and for the same reason. For some reason, I haven't been able to "get it on paper" (or whatever). I've been visiting others and reading and reading. Theirs are so good, I feel cowed. I did begin a new medication a few months ago, and haven't had an original, creative thought since. Yes, Ha, I'll blame it on the meds!
Hi,
Thank goodness the rain stopped, now we just have to deal with the wind. Our house is okay, just a little leaky in some places. My husband's friend will be okay, but will be drinking shakes for awhile until he can eat solids again.
Take some photos when you are out on your walks, that's usually a good source of inspiration.
Getting behind is easy to do!
I find too, with regard to reading blogs, that I've got in a muddle.
I used to do everything with the Google Reader and could be quite methodical and decided. But now I use so many methods (Blotanical lists in their various forms, Following, Links etc.) that I've ended up in a muddle and all over the place and completely random about what I read and when.
It's too tempting to go to what happens to be at the top of whatever list at that particular moment and I've realised, recently, this leads me more to blogs which happen to have their posts published at the the same time of day as I publish mine - instead of going first to the ones I like best. Daft.
I've popped over here a few times in this random kind of way when you weren't posting . . . then I didn't . . . so I'm only reading this now (9th January). . . which is also when I shouldn't be reading any blogs because I told myself that, apart from posting the daily photo on PICTURES JUST PICTURES
I wouldn't have anything to do with blogs until the 19th January. I wasn't even planning to reply to comments - and can I live up to my decision to take a short break from blogging while I clean the house and file papers and speak to my family for a change? Clearly not, or I wouldn't be here!
Photos and when you take them . . .
I've been having so much fun with my camera phone, I've become quite enthusiastic about recommending it to others. It goes everywhere with me, in my pocket if necessary, but generally in the palm of my hand.
It's completely unobtrusive, partly because it's so small and partly because carrying a mobile phone has become so much the norm people don't really register you have it.
But, like you, I often fail to seize the moment. There's almost nothing that will still be there if you 'come back later'. Even if the object hasn't changed or moved, or gone, or had something put in front of it, the light will have changed . . . and, sometimes, that's the end of a good shot.
Olive trees - I think you mentioned olives once before. From a purely selfish point of view - I'd be really pleased if you were to do a post on their care and pruning etc. It's so new to grow olives in England, you can't just pop over the road to ask your neighbour what you should do - because they won't know either.
Sorry that's a bit long!
Best wishes for 2009
Lucy
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